I've actually never started a poetry thread before, can you believe that? *lol* It seems absurd because it's what I am, what I do . . . I breathe poetry. I know that sounds kind of corny, but it's true. I've been writing since I was around six, and it's really all I want to do--that and music. I think they're hand in hand, poetry and music. Music IS poetry set to melody. I think if it wasn't for poetry being my main outlet, I would have gone mad long ago and jumped off a cliff or something dramatic. *lol* But seriously, I think poetry was my first language and it's a big part of my everyday sanity. :)
So here we go . . . I hope you'll enjoy my lyrical rantings.
These first two poems are actually songs I wrote on the piano. They started out being instrumentals, but I added lyrics to the melody later. ;)
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I Lost MyselfAnd I’ve come so far
So far and fallen so deep
Until I disappear in sleep
How many ways there are
Ways to escape one’s self
And all I’ve put upon the shelf
Never to look upon in life
While I’m caught between two planes
And what you see of me is all that remains
Now the fragments lie upon the earth
They add to all that global girth
That drain the soul and blade the life
Once I felt I knew myself
In bright blue tints and shades of truth
Belonging to my distant youth
Where are you Self?
You left me bare
Sometimes I forget I’m even there
Devoid of inner peace, of calm
Equanimity that once was balm
As pure and bright and true as rare
Why ever did you leave me?
Where ever could you be?
There goes the rest of my vitality
My cells cry out in mourning plea
Somehow I lost myself, you see
And somehow I’ll never find a way to me
Because I lost myself, you see
I lost myself, you see
We’ll grow upon the glory vine
Try to make our lives something we can eat
Something to entreat
Oh well, I’d never find the time
Just falling from the hazel hue
Until I’m lost inside in you
And you forget that you were mine
Because it all comes back to the halcyon days of glee
It all comes back to me
And I lost myself, you see
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Euphoria in a Moment LostI should have bathed in the sweetness of you
When the moment in eternity was ripe
And your pure heat surrounded me and all I knew
Was that I wanted you, I wanted the nearness of you
What gripping fear strangled my feeling intense
And quelled the natural finality?
What turned on my every desiring sense
So that I felt happily lost in your personality
And rushing downward my every defense
Allowing the knowing hands to acquaint themselves
Amazed in the bliss of soft and hurried breathing
Drunk on kisses and the wet enticing tongue, I forget myself
All I know is that I am one with all that is living
All that is loving in you and your wanting
Wanting all that is warm and that can shelter the heart in me
Even if for a moment lost to oblivion in the madness of leaving
The ache of removal, of terminating connection with eternity
You are the eternity of all I want to know
Of all the heat of passion, even the pain that comes with it
Again I want to swim the extent of your ocean high and low
And let my universe be alive with your touch that every star is lit
By the fire of your nearness and the light of love you emit
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I Would I WereI would I were a dove
Then I would fly farther than the eye can see
I would cover the expanse of the ocean
How I would fly, yes, how I would flee
I would I were a wren
Then my view of the world would be sharper than a thousand knives
I could superimpede any block in my wake
How I would grow, yes, how I would rise
I would I were a magpie
Then my speech would be sure and swift
I would use my persuasive powers to my advantage
How I would act, yes, with my speaking gift
I would I were a raven
Then to be alone in the world, I would not fear
I would be like a fortress impenetrable to the mordant world
How I would journey to the lands I adore, yes, so far from here
I would my heart were safe beneath the earth
Sleeping like a cat in a slumber unwakeable
Dreaming of a place where the flowers are bright and the trees are tall
How I would rest, alone, yes, unmovable